On March 16th, 2020, an announcement was made by Governor Newsom of California to shelter at home due to the corona virus that manifested around the globe.
Avenya’s circle felt the call to start getting together daily to go through deep meditative processes to connect with the current energy streaming from the Earth and to ground ourselves in our life energy. We recognized that the collective disconnect from the spirit world brings about the current symptoms we experience in our physical reality. We met daily for two months and have continued to meet twice a week thereafter.
We feel this pandemic is just one of many calls we are receiving as a result of our collective ways of living to reorient ourselves to the experience of the spiritual world within us, and through this to begin to engage with our true inner purpose and deepest sense of belonging.
Our experiences led us to connect with the source of life within the Universe and the Earth’s spiritual world within our bodies, as well as with our own soul. We connected from our hearts to everyone in our circle each day, and we invited the world of the ancestors to join us. From there, we followed what developed from the live energy within each of us and within the circle.
We will be releasing sharings every week of what we experienced during these processes that the Earth’s soul led us through.
This week's sharing:
“I saw myself walking forward into the center of our circle with a loaf of bread and my head bowed. I placed the bread in the center and bent down to the ground into a kind of child's pose, where I stayed for a long time. I didn't look up to see who was taking bread, because it wasn't about the outcome; it was about what I offered and gave of myself.”
“It is this “rite of passage” that connects me to my conscious being, that allows me to enter our inner circle and share what I have to offer. I notice a flickering light appear in the circle as the sky opens up and the rain washes away all the tainted thoughts and memories that drive my external self to seek refuge in the clouds.”
“I became aware of a pattern of irritation and anger within me, a feeling that arises from me wanting to control other people or situations and not being able to…it creates friction inside. As I sat with what was happening between my lower chakras and heart, I became aware of a way to transform this. There is a pathway through the heart that can transform it- on the other side of it is compassion. I tried it out with some situations by moving the emotions I felt up from the second chakra and through the heart, into compassion energy. I then became more conscious of the chakra above the top of my head- offering a higher perspective and understanding, along with the heart energy.”
“As my heart unlearned and reformed, along with the change it grew as a respite from the chaos of my life and granted me a looking glass into a space inside that was growing new legs to touch down upon a new earth that existed somewhere outside and inside myself at the same time. Even though these legs remained unformed they informed my choices to step away from the generic and overwhelming response I was being bombarded with and saw reflected in every other physical realm of my existence (within my job, home and communities... even my dreamworld was not safe from the impact and intrusion of a world in pain).”
“This was a long process of surrendering our attachments to what we know and what we are used to, experiencing processes of Earth’s spiritual evolution and our place in that potent process, and through that opening ourselves up to the possibility of Earth reaching and touching our feet, so that we can feel the new grounding that wants to rise, the new way of living that is available through this relationship that can not be manipulated or used, it can only be felt and moved with and we can live with the foundations of life that can raise through our inner connection with the spirit world.”
“As I passed through my tunnels of surrender, letting go of what I know, and experienced the connection to our circle, I saw us ascending each on top of one big pillar high into the air. Each of us and the pillar were an extension of the spiritual world of the Earth, living and breathing with it. Once the pillars stopped ascending, we were in a space with light blue energy around us and no sight of the ground. As we looked at each other from our individual connection with the spirit world, invisible bridges started to appear that connected us.”
“A light blue light came down through my head into my throat and spinal column, bringing a profound feeling of peace…It eventually traveled into my legs, creating “new legs” to replace the old ones that were tied to the old way of doing/moving. My feet lit up with this light and I saw them connected to this network of light blue light across the surface of the whole planet.”
“I entered into the first place in my body that called my attention- my heart. A deep unexplainable grief emerged and I cried for quite a while, feeling I needed an anchor point to help me stay in my heart. I imagined a garden in my heart where I could feel the Earth and the Universe. A blue light appeared and I followed it through the garden, which felt good to do.
As I stepped into the circle, another wave of deep grief came through me. I saw it pour out of me as a grey color into a deep dark blue pool at my feet, where it was absorbed. I then saw a flower with large petals and tall stamens. The petals fell away and only the stamens remained, vertical but vulnerable without the strength and embrace of the petals. This felt metaphorical- the feminine petals removed and the masculine parts exposed, but they need the feminine strength and protection to balance the energy. I felt my grieving was related to a collective grief of women over the feminine energy not being valued, and I felt how deeply it was affecting me.”
“Paralyzed by my reflection, I yell out when do I come alive? When do we all come alive? A deep sense of sadness starts to fill the expansive room and slowly permeate my world, a world I feel no longer hears my cries; our collective cries.
I feel overwhelmed, immobilized by this feeling of detachment from everything in my physical world, a world where I neglect to “nourish” my inner soul; a world where I have forgotten how to support my spiritual well-being and development.
I ask myself am I the only one that feels this severed connection from life? this “fear and loathing” at the thought of returning “back to normal”?”
“During meditations with our inner circle I start to slowly acknowledge and face the root of my inner sadness; to seek clarity around why I respond the way I do to my circumstances. This is a slow and laborious process, one that is unfamiliar to me. But with the support of others my lungs begin to expand and with each breath a sense of hope emerges as I start to step out of that lifeless, achromatic image hanging on the wall. I sense I am starting to nurture my soul.
“Our circle is like a ring that Earth puts on. When that happens Earth’s world and our world come into contact. Our circle needs to become more flexible so that this connection can be deeper. For me to make it more flexible I need to act quicker to connection, what comes, and not to hold back. To trust it even if I don’t see all angles.”
“How my soul wants to move- I felt a boundary around me with a rigid quality. My soul began stretching this clear boundary, it became more elastic, stretched further outward, more space for me to move in all aspects of my life”
“I felt the presence of the new Earth (Earth’s current life energy and its reflection in me) and how its life energy is wanting to spread through my body. I followed it through light pathways in me, opening channels that were ready for this energy to stream through. When we connected from our hearts as a circle, I was only able to feel the presence of new Earth within me and within each person. This life energy streamed through the circle and we found ourselves standing on sand within a cave that had an open ceiling. As the new Earth life energy streamed through our circle a large boulder was removed from the entrance to the cave. Bright light streamed through on each side of the boulder and around our circle. I felt the immense power of the light behind the cave and the boulder, where the world of new Earth was extending over a large body of water. We have gotten a glimpse of this world, a feeling, as we connected to it as a group.”
“It is this stark recognition that begins to transform my experience... the door starts to gradually disappear and is replaced by a porous translucent membrane that invites me to step inside… I move effortlessly through this seamless barrier and find my soul on the other side.”
“When I asked how to connect to the Earth today- I saw myself laying on the ground with my womb against her and sitting with my yoni connected to her. Creative/sexual energies rose up into my womb space. I also saw myself seated on the ground with a large metal singing bowl in my open lap as the new Earth energies swirled inside- glowing colors of yellow, blue, and magenta.”
While this process unfolded inside me I could feel the new earth rising up beneath my souls' presence in the circle. Giving rise to a small patch of green grass growing around my feet and slowly creeping outward in all directions around me and each of the other members of the group holding the space. The circle grew in its dimensions as a sphere of people joined then the ancestors placed themselves staggered between us all filling in the negative spaces of our connection. That is when the grasses grew tall, my chrysalis opened and the new journey of the united circle into the center of the sphere began.
During meditations with our inner circle I start to slowly acknowledge and face the root of my inner sadness; to seek clarity around why I respond the way I do to my circumstances. This is a slow and laborious process, one that is unfamiliar to me. But with the support of others my lungs begin to expand and with each breath a sense of hope emerges as I start to step out of that lifeless, achromatic image hanging on the wall. I sense I am starting to nurture my soul.
Our circle goes up towards the height of the clouds. I somehow have this feeling we are not supposed to stay there even though it is nice. A pathway presents itself, like a dark tunnel. I feel that is the path I need to take. I step through the opening; it is completely dark. I arrive at an unfamiliar place and it is still dark. I do not have a memory of the feeling of that place. I stay with my attention within me, feeling the spirit. A light appears in the distance, light of the spirit world, it shines light upon me and some of the land. There are other people emerging from the shadows. It is peaceful. This is the new Earth.
I stood on my life path and asked about my next step in maturing. I took a step and my foot was in a body of water- no solid ground! I put the other foot in and felt fear and began moving my legs. I sensed that I needed to embrace emotional maturing. I was “walking” in the water, water under my feet seemed to support me and I slowly moved further on the path, allowing fluidity and flow, without letting emotion control me.
The Earth led me to experience my relationship with my personal power – the power of life as it wants to unfold, to take steps towards personal maturing and living with the spirit world of the Earth. As I followed the touch of the Earth with my attention, I felt like a rock started to lift from my power center, to float and transform, and my energy started to move through me more freely. My power then started to engage with different energetic movements within me that wanted to engage with sharing about the causes of the current situation and possible things we can do to reconnect with the spiritual world in us and start to live out of that relationship.
"I could feel my heart filling and beating more full in the presence of the circle as if it were readying its self to reach out and make gentle contact with each member of the group, who stood waiting patiently at the doorway to the area of the spiritual dimension....From a distance behind and outside this circle, I could feel the presence of the ancestors growing and moving in closer and closer. The gravity and magnetism of their presence flushing the light being pumped from the ever-filling pool of creation through my body to travel through my spine and into the very fibers of my being."
"When we invited the world of the ancestors to join our circle, they appeared behind each of us as a long line of souls. One ancestor was standing right behind me and a door presented itself right in front of me. The opening was dark and the ancestor’s energy was suggesting that I step through the doorway. I was reluctant as I could not see what is in there. But, I felt it was the right thing to do, and I trusted the ancestor. I got my courage and stepped through. I found myself at a place where I was doing what my life energy wanted me to do, I embraced all my responsibilities in this place. The place was seemingly empty and murky, it was slow to move in it, but it felt really good to embrace what my life energy really wanted to engage with."
“The beautiful thing about having regular "appointments" with the group is that I've been able to ride a wave of evolution around learning about myself. Images that involve the back of my neck, my throat, and my voice being spoken loudly have come up repeatedly. I wasn't looking for these and have often returned to the want to surrender to our connections, rather than trying to impose an outcome. It has been in the background of my life recently that I need to speak up in the world and allow my voice to be heard. These connections are making this even more clear, more deeply understood.”
“We are releasing cramped energy of the liver like spiritual energy, etc. As I was surrendering deeper into the experience of the spirit world in me, and becoming more open to that world, the light of the soul and the Earth were able to stretch through the life energy lines within me as if reaching to new territories and replenishing the rest. I started to feel how the cramped-up energy around the liver started to relax and release spiritual flow through the body.”
“When I observed my expression after my soul touched my heart, I saw myself coughing, sputtering, throat irritation…unable to express my soul and a feeling of depression, defeat, and sadness. My throat sphere wanted to open up through my crown and above to receive energy from there, down into the throat area.”